Why I have Wasted Your Time

If you know me I have wasted your time
Loneliness in my heart is real
By association you have suffered pain

Unfairly

I know I have not treated you well
I have not had the capability to love
And love without condition
I am a product of dysfunction

No father ever cuddled me
No mother ever kissed me
No brothers and sisters in my youth
Were free to discover me

And of my own doing
I deserted my children for the search of gold
The will to find something
Anything

But I never did

I have wasted your time